manila was never prepared for what the typhoon milenyo did, it toppled down trees, meralco posts and even billboards, leaving manila with no electricity for days. i wasn’t able to sleep well during the blackout, the evenings were humid, and my neighbor always end up drunk and noisy.i went to a nearby coffee shop yesterday because 1) i was getting restless, 2) i have to recharge my mobile phones, camera and laptop. lol. to justify my leeching escapade, i bought a large cup of coffee and read a book. hours have gone by and my coffee cup’s dry, i began to notice people looking at me, my huge bag and the charger cable sticking out of it. they all looked anxious and i heard one of them say, “what’s she charging in there, a generator??”

the moment i pulled out the plug, they all swarmed in on the lone outlet and stared at the person who got there first. lol.

the house next door had electricity back the other day, while we had ours a few hours ago. you should’ve seen how frustrated and envious i was when i saw my neighbor’s house looking “normal” with all the lights back on. anyway, now that it’s back, i have to start working on pending projects before meralco decides to tease us again. 0_o

this is the messy desk where i spend most of my boring day. there’s the router, the chika phone, some design reference books, my monitor critters, lip balms, nagging post-its, pen holders, the red egg clock and the web cam. there used to be a jelly bear up there, but i don’t know where i misplaced it.

small collection of design reference

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i bought a canon eos 350d last week before i went to cebu, but since i don’t have enough cash with me at the time, i wasn’t able to buy a bag for my deprived cam. so i wrapped it with a wide cotton headband and kept it inside a white grocery bag, defiled and all. after days of being homeless, i’ve finally found a new home for it :)

i don’t know what’s with me today, but i woke up feeling all happy. as in brady-bunch happy– giddy, light-headed and smiling. that’s odd, because a few days ago i was like the mother of all bitches. maybe it’s the do-wah-diddy-diddy stuff i downloaded last night. anyhoo, while i’m still in a good mood, i’d better write this down.

life’s probably not unfair. just complex.

ok, i’d probably stab myself for saying this today, but hey, when was the last time i said something positive? lol.

if you’d ask about my goals for the next five to ten years, i can answer you with all the elaborate bullcrap i could think of, the kind that makes your eyes twinkle whenever you fantasize about your early retirement. but here comes reality, folks: i don’t really know what i want in life. i am neither happy nor sad. perhaps resigned. cheap cologne lingers longer than any of my interests.

it’s also the reason why i get frustrated with my designs and its contents– they are all messed up. scattered and aimless.

*sigh*

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 10 people to play this game too. (oist! yes, you! TAG TAG TAG!!)

• How are you feeling today?
+++ Ana’s Song (Silverchair) - um.. i’m actually feeling full and healthy, thank you.

• How do your friends see you?
+++ Angel (Sarah McLachlan) - oh yesss… be deceived *wink*

• Will you get married?
+++ Sunny Came Home (Shawn Colvin) – “sunny came home with a vengeance” hehehe, oh yes. screw it all.

• What is your best friend’s theme song?
+++ Pedalpusher (Stereophonics) - yikes!

• What is the story of your life?
+++ Half Life (Sneaker Pimps) - bakit pansin ko parang swak ata tong shuffles?!?

• What was high school like?
+++ Gunning Down Romance (Savage Garden) - ahahaha!! being the invisible nerd that i am.. social layp: 0. lab layp: 0.

• How can you get ahead in life?
+++ Fallen (Sarah McLachlan) - onga naman..

• What is the best thing about your friends?
+++ Amber Waves (Tori Amos) - nice :)

• What is today going to be like?
+++ Bohemian Like You (Dandy Warhols) - hahaha!! AYOS!

• What is in store for this weekend?
+++ Motherless Child (Johnny Hollow)

• What song describes you?
+++ What I Like About You (Lillix) - *shudder* yuck cheesiness!

• To describe your grandparents?
+++ 8 Months & Seven Days (Vienna) - labo..

• How is your life going?
+++ The Pearl (Fleming & John) - heto, materialistic parin. lol.

• What song will they play at your funeral?
+++ Portions for Foxes (Rilo Kiley) - hehehe! now you don’t have to decide if you can or can not live without me!

• How does the world see you?
+++ Perfect One (Sneaker Pimps) - ahahaha!! ayos

• Will you have a happy life?
+++ Come Down (Slovo)

• What do your friends really think of you?
+++ Parasol (Tori Amos) - hm.. ewan ko lang. nde naman ako nagsasalita about this.

• Do people secretly lust after you?
+++ Blue American (Placebo) - “i wrote this novel just for you, that’s why it’s vulgar, that’s why it’s blue” – lol

• How can I make myself happy?
+++ Wild Horses (Rolling Stones) - it seems i’d be needing a punching bag lol

• What should you do with your life?
+++ Tears and Rain (James Blunt) - hahaha! been thinking about this, actually.

• Will you ever have children?
+++ Chop Suey (System of a Down) - wat da hell! ayoko na talaga magka-anak!